Beginning of the Universe: Why Do We Miss It?

A child asks their first question once they can form sentences: “Where did I come from?” As humanity matured, the question did not change. However, the tools did. We replaced myths with telescopes. Furthermore, we swapped folktales for mathematical equations. Yet, the hunger remains the same. Why are we obsessed with the “Beginning”?

Why are we drawn to the Big Bang theory? Moreover, why do we view Cosmic Inflation with a fascination resembling religious awe? Are we merely curious scientists? Or is there something in our psychological makeup? Perhaps we feel alienated in this vastness. Consequently, we search for a way back to the primal “Cosmic Womb.”

1. The Biological Need for Narrative: “Once Upon a Time”

The human brain is a **Storytelling Machine**. We do not understand the world as random data. Instead, we see it as a story with a Beginning, a Middle, and an End. A universe without a beginning is “chaos” to the brain. In fact, the idea of time being infinite in the past is terrifying. Therefore, it confuses the human mind, which lives in linear time.

We need a **”Zero Point.”** We need a moment we can point to. Then, we can say: “Here is where the story began.” The Big Bang theory offers us this narrative satisfaction. Essentially, it is the scientific version of “Once upon a time.” It gives chaos a structure. Additionally, it gives time a direction. Thus, it gives existence the meaning of an “Event.” Without a beginning, the universe feels like an unfinished sentence floating in the void.

2. The Longing for Oneness

In psychology, it is believed that the deepest human pain is the pain of **Separation**. We live in separate bodies. Additionally, we possess separate minds. As a result, we feel lonely. However, the moment of the **Singularity** represents the exact opposite of this separation.

Our attraction to the **beginning of the universe** is a nostalgia for that lost unity. Subconsciously, we long for that state. Specifically, the state where we were not torn between “I” and “Them.” The Big Bang is not just a physical event. Rather, it is the moment of the “Primal Tear.” Therefore, searching for it is an attempt to heal this rift.

3. Searching for Meaning via Source

There is a logical rule that governs our thinking. It states: “If I know where I came from, I will know why I am here. Furthermore, I will know where I am going.” We believe that **Purpose** is hidden in the **Source**.

Scientists study the first moments of the cosmos. However, they are not just looking for “how” particles formed. Instead, they are searching for the fundamental “Code” of existence. We hope to find the Creator’s signature in that first moment. Alternatively, we look for the purpose of the design. The obsession with beginnings is a search for the universe’s “User Manual.” Ultimately, we hope it will tell us what we should do right now.

4. Horror Vacui (Fear of the Void)

The alternative to a beginning is “Nothingness” or “Random Infinity.” Unfortunately, both are terrifying. To believe the universe has a definite beginning means there is **Order**. Consequently, order gives us safety. Imagine if the universe were random. For instance, if it had no beginning and no end. Or, if it had no cause and effect. This would make our lives seem like a terrifyingly absurd accident. Focusing on “Cosmic Genesis” is our way of taming the monster of absurdity. Thus, we convince ourselves that we are part of a grand plan. Moreover, this plan started in a majestic moment.

5. We Are Stardust Trying to Remember Its Origin

Physicist Lawrence Krauss and astronomer Neil deGrasse Tyson remind us of a truth. In fact, it is a stunning poetic truth: **”Every atom in your body was cooked in the heart of an exploding star.”** The iron in your blood came from there. Similarly, the calcium in your bones formed there. Furthermore, the carbon in your genes was created there. All were formed in the first minutes of the universe. Or, they were born in the hearts of stars afterward.

So, when you are drawn to the news from the James Webb Telescope, you are not studying an “external subject.” Rather, you are studying your **Family Album**. This attraction is the voice of matter calling out to itself. Ultimately, it is human consciousness. This is “the universe’s way of knowing itself.”

Conclusion: Back to the Future

We do not chase beginnings to live in the past. Instead, we do it to understand the present. Every new discovery about the Big Bang tells us something new. Specifically, it informs us about the “Big Consciousness” we carry now. Perhaps, in the end, we will not find a cold mathematical equation. On the contrary, we will find a mirror.

We will find that the singular point of light did not extinguish. Instead, it dispersed to become billions of eyes. Now, these eyes are searching for each other. The question “Where did we come from?” is profound. In truth, it is the question **”Who are we?”**